Tuesday, September 4, 2012

On failing (Pt 2)

Later this month my baby turns one. I can hardly believe it. It seems like only yesterday I was holding that light-as-a-feather bundle and now she pulls herself up to stand, waves good-bye, says a few little things like 'ta' when she hands you something and 'uh-oh' when she drops something. She is slowly, before my eyes, growing out of baby-hood and into toddler-hood.

In addition to this she is napping less and I am therefore getting less time to work on my own projects, like daily blogging. So I'm scaling back.

I'm not just going to blame it on the baby though (poor JJ)! Because if I wanted to keep prioritising daily blogging I could easily do that. It's just that now I have to prioritise other things. I've had a great opportunity present itself for my artwork next year (can't talk about it just yet - but as soon as I can - you'll be the first to know!) and if I don't start dedicating lots of time to it, it's not going to happen.

I also have some other projects I'm just itching to work on and share with you but I don't have the time or the headspace while I'm frantically planning posts, writing posts and taking photographs for posts all the time.

At the start of the year I made these resolutions. So far I have made a website. By the end of the year I will have completed not one, but three e-courses (including this one coming up). I still need to participate in Illustration Friday (and I will) and the painting thing has just been elevated to 'urgent' status.

I feel like by blogging daily for eight months (yikes!) I have achieved what I set out to do - find inspiration and motivation on-line by writing regularly, connecting with others and creating a place to talk about creativity and share what I'm working on. So, as in yesterday's post, I guess I have failed, strictly speaking, but in the grand scheme of things, I've succeeded. I actually feel really good about this decision and proud of myself for making it to the 8 month mark.

But I don't intend to abandon the blog. I'll still be here weekly, just not every single day. And as a result of that decision I feel like so much time and space has opened up for my other creative projects - I feel energised and excited about the future.

And also, honestly, I really want to dedicate more of my time to these cheeky monkeys.

And I want to simply enjoy the journey - art, motherhood, life, the whole lot, without working to a self-imposed, arbitrary schedule.

But I will still be here regularly - blogging's addictive! - as well as my other haunts: Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest. So I hope that you will still want to pop in here every now and again and say hello.